4 months ago
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
So, I am writing this blog as a bit of a "venting" session...so I apologize ahead of time to anyone who happens to read it. I find myself in this same place every couple of years and each time I am sitting there in a bit of a stupor going..."Hmm...what happened? Did I say something? Did I do something? Not do something?" Each time I am unable to come up with an answer. You see, my problem is that every few years or so I meet someone that I just click with...girl...not boy. She and I become close, do things for one another, hang out, get eachother through tough times...normal things that friends do for eachother. Then, all of a sudden, out of the blue, I realize..."Wow, I haven't heard from ______ in awhile." So, I call, write, and anything else I can think of to get into contact with the missing person. The response is always the same...too busy, life is crazy...or no response at all. The funny thing is...well maybe not so funny to me...is that they just seem to be too busy for me. And then, the hurt begins. The confusion sets in. The self reflection goes into overload. I find myself comsumed with trying to figure out what it is that I have done to "drive" someone away...and each time I am stumped. I must admit that I am getting a bit of a complex...am I not a good friend? Am I one of those annoying people that everyone just pretends to like? I don't know...don't get it...and am so over this feeling of "eck." So, if you read this...have any thoughts...please, be honest...tell me, what is it that I do...I really don't want to be the annoying person everyone pretends to like!